Tonight, I learned something I should have done ages ago. My brother kept telling me, my peers kept telling me, my friends kept telling me, and now I'm gonna bite the bullet. Suck it up and JUST DO IT.
For years I've been wallowing in misery and self-pity. While others roam around freely and happily, getting on with their lives as I wait in the corner. Nervous, worried about what others may think or say. I've been isolated so long that I don't even know how to act in public. You know what? SCREW THOSE PEOPLE! I'm not sorry for anything I have done! You're missing out if you don't know me! TO KNOW ME, IS TO LOVE ME! Full of myself? YES I AM, because confidence is the only thing I got left in this body! I am awesome, I am a warrior! You hear that Dad? You told me I couldn't be a warrior, but I am in the eyes of all that adore me! How? Respect to others, to know that when I have done wrong I can face you as a friend and accept my faults. Honor to those who have made me what I am and Stand for what I believe in.
Procrastination is a demon. It will kill you and bring you down so hard that you will feel frozen in place. For over 10 years I have been in that place and God knows it's only up to YOU to get your butt out of the mud and back out on the streets to search, to keep going, to keep fighting!
Misery is not my game, no! It's just a delusion of my own lies to myself! I feel free at last. I feel liberated.
The things I like or do, I never attempt because I keep saying "Oh I'm so busy" or "Hey I'll finish that game another time." NO! NO MORE! You gotta make time my friends! TIME is always there! It's ALWAYS going to be knocking on your door like a package from the mail man. Special Delivery, here's TIME! From now on, I'm gonna do it.
Like tonight, I came home from work after 7 1/2 hour shift. Feeling tired, but SCREW IT! I put up the Christmas Tree, took down the decoration boxes, and got it all done in 1 hour and 30 minutes. Now, I'm wide awake and have so much energy that I'm writing this at 236am. Sure I could be playing World of Warcraft or New Super Mario Bros. Wii or Donkey Kong Country Returns. Yet I will make time for them all! Why? Cause that's what a Warrior does. I came, I saw, and I conquered yet not in one day, but in the time you make for it.
Bottom line here people: JUST DO IT.